What Cancer CANNOT do....

I have a poem about Cancer to share, Doug, my pastor, read it last night at church.
I thought I would share it with everyone.
What Cancer Cannot Do
Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love
It cannot shatter hope
It cannot corrode faith
It cannot destroy peace
It cannot kill friendship
It cannot suppress memories
It cannot silence courage
It cannot invade the soul
It cannot steal eternal life
It cannot conquer the spirit.

This poem is really true and I can relate to it.

Thats all for tonight..

"Pressing On"

I've started going to a Bible Study with some ladies from my church, and last night we were suppose to memorize Philippians 3:12-14 which says "12Not that I have already obtained all this, or have already been made perfect, but I press on to take hold of that for which Christ Jesus took hold of me. 13Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, 14I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus." So we are to press on towards what is ahead and forget what has happened in the past. This is what Jesus does about our sin, and we can't forget the sins we've comitted and they keep creeping back up into ourlives.

There is also a song by Relient K called 'Pressing On" and it goes like this:
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
There's only one thing left to do.
Drop all I have and go with you.

[Chorus:]Somewhere back there I left my worries all behind.
My problems fell out of the back of my mind.
We're going and I'm never knowing (never knowing) where we're going.
To go back to where I was would just be wrong.
I'm pressing on.
Pressing on, all my distress is going, going, gone. (pressing on, pressing on)
And I won't sit back, and take this anymore.
'Cause I'm done with that,
I've got one foot out the door.
And to go back where I was would just be wrong
I'm pressing on.

I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Out of mind, out of state.
Trying to keep my head on straight.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here.
Adversity, we get around it.
Searched for joy, in you I found it.

You look down on me, but you don't look down on me at all.
You smile and laugh, and I feel the love you have for me.
I think we're going somewhere.
We're on to something good here, and we're gonna make it after all.

Just Grace or AMAZING Grace????

Tonight at church Doug was talking about a "seeker-friendly" church that changed the word wretch to man. When asked why they did that, they simply said wretch is too harsh. The person who asked that said you don't have a full understanding of grace. If you change wretch to man, it goes from amazing grace to just grace. I completely agree with that.. So what is grace to you? Is it AMAZING or not???

15 down a whole lot more to go.

Well, back a few months ago I had some bloodwork done and my blood sugar/glucose was elevated. They were a little concerned because diabetes runs in the family and with me being over-weight I am even more at risk. They then did a 2 hr glucose tolerance test and it was still up so, it was recommended for me to see a nutritionist. Which I did approx. 3 weeks ago. She stated that we would start with me loosing 70 lbs and go from there. I was like ok, so I made a goal for myself and it is to loose 75lbs. I went back to the dr. today to have a wart frozen off, and I had lost 15lbs, and my blood sugar was already down to 102 which is good, to some a little hight but not really. I'm excited about the good news, but I know there is still a long road ahead on loosing the weight. I'll keep you posted on my progress.. Have a good one!!

It's FINAL!!!

Well today is a very happy day in the life of the Beecham's. Well six months ago our world was changed when Will was born, and today he is officially a Beecham :) Will's adoption was finalized today! He also had his 6 month check up this week and he weights 15lbs. and is 24 1/2 in. long!! And Healthy!!

In other news lets see.. Oh dad and I were watching TV Monday night and on some show someone said that "almost dying doesn't change anything, but dying does." Well, I beg to differ, both of them change things. Where shall I start. I myself have been pretty close to dying and let me tell you it changed a lot of things. If nothing else it changed my outlook on life and made me realize that I or no-one else is promised a tomorrow. It also made me realize how special every person in my life is. So ponder that quote.. I'll try to update a lil more frequently!
I leave you with a picture of Will that I took on Sunday when he was 6 months old!

2 years

Two years ago today is a day I'll never forget... It marks the day that I was diagnosed with cancer. I personally never thought I would be the one with Cancer. I had known plenty of people with Cancer and even had loved ones die from the disease. My world changed like I could never expect that day. God had a lot in store for me over especially the next five months as I would undergo quite the battle to come out on top and give Him all the Glory. I remember sitting in the doctors office that day and him telling me that I was going to spend 4-6 weeks in the hospital before I could even go home. At first thought I was like no way, I can't do that, I'm way to active and this really can't be happening to me. Little did I know that less than 5 hours later I would have a machine helping me breathe and pretty much be sedated so I didn't know what was going on. Truly the first few days are such a blur for me because I was sedated. It is hard to believe that I was thankful for the trach rather than a breathing tube. Thankfully those 4-6 weeks became only 11 days for the first stint. I did spend more than enough time in the hospital in 2006, but I am thankful for each day and each nurse, doctor, care partner, radiology tech, nutrition person, and even the housekeeping people, who took care of me. They each made an amazing impact on my life. I love going back to the hospital to visit and seeing the smiles on their faces to help them remember why they are in the medical field. I have been told several times that they enjoy seeing their success stories. I am glad that I am one of them and that I was able to leave a piece of Kim in that hospital, and that God used me and is still using me in ways that I will never know. Before I wrote this post I was thinking how many years will I recall this anniversary on a blog or through an email, and I can't answer that, but I really hope that I do it every year, even if it is to say I had another healthy year and this marks fill in the blank year of being diagnosed....

I pray that I will be more open to sharing my story with the people that I meet on a daily basis if the situation arises, because yesterday I feel I missed that oppourtunity at the airport. Yesterday as mom and I were waiting at the airport in Tampa for our plane to leave. A lady came up and sat across for me and asked what verse is that, speaking of the Phil 4:6-7 that is on my tattoo. I quoted the verse and moved on in the conversation, basically just saying it was my life verse. She did tell me she liked that verse and really needed it that moring because she didn't really like to fly. I debated in my head on whether or not to tell my story. Well my flesh won and I didn't share. I am still wondering if I should of stepped up in my faith and shared my story, now I am left wondering if it would of made an impact on her life. We did talk about other things, and my mom did tell her I was sick, but I'm not sure to what extent. I think part of the reason I didn't share is because I feel that it makes it all about me, and really it was all about God bringing me through that situation on top and more in love with Him. I need to think about how to make JESUS shine through my story!

Sorry for the long post but its what was on my mind.. Hopefully more about our great vacation next time! :)

Kim:)

florida :)

Well, my mom and I are in Florida at Siesta Key for the week!! We have absolutely enjoyed ourselves. It's so pretty here, but man is it hot in the afternoon! I'll try to write more once I get home but I wanted to share this picture with you. This is the sunset a few nights ago. Isn't it absolutely Gorgeous! ?